Daddy daddy

Dear My Babyluv,

Your father is finally home...

I know, we are both the happiest...

Love u

Your mother

My sunshine

Dear My Babyluv,

Good morning! 

My mornings are so much better with you around...

I love you so much Babyluv..

I loveeeeeeeee youuuuuuuu...

Love, 

Your mother 

Hey

Hey Baby Dsouza...

You are loved!! So much...

excited

Dear My Babyluv, 

Hows my baby? 

My favorited person in the world? 

I hope ur ok Babyluv, and enjoying in my tummy.. 

I love you so much, don't ever ever ever forget that! 

I am cleaning the room, we'll not that clean, but ya just preparing because your father is coming home tomorrow..

Yeheyy!

He will finally be with us Babyluv..

He will hug both of us when we sleep..

Oh I've missed him so much..

I'm sure you do too..

So hang on there my sunshine ok...

I love you.

So much..

Love,

Your mother 

I love you

My Babyluv..

Good morning sunshine!!!

My sunshine

Dear My Babyluv,

I met up with the OB, and the result is expected. Though I know the answers to my questions, I still shiver everytime I hear it from the doctor..

But I am ok now Babyluv..

At first I'm hesitant to tell The Lord ,

"Lord thy will be done"

Because I know and I'm scared that He will take you Babyluv..

But who am I to doubt The Lord's love for us Babyluv, when in fact He was the one who gave you to me and your father..

So while I remain positive and hopeful..

I also remain realistic..

I am very lucky to have your father whom I can draw strength from...

Your father is so positive.

Never seen him like this before...

He said he is praying for a miracle and he  believes we will get one..

The greatest miracle we have had is you, Babyluv.. 

I love you so Much..

We love you so much...

I'm never gonna give up..

So pls don't also give up on us ok...

Love you,

Your mother 

Daddy's coming home

By the way Babyluv, your father is coming home in 2 days..

He is supposed to extend his stay in Malaysia for another week or so..

But after what happened yesterday, 

He told his boss that he has to be home and be with us..

We will be 1 compete family again Babyluv...

I love you..

Your mother

Ready or not

Dear My Babyluv, 

I'm in the clinic today to meet the OB..

I had it rescheduled a week earlier bec of yesterday's test..

I really don't know why I did this..

But I just need to undertand what is happening with us Babyluv..

Nope, I didn't cry promise...

I went to work today. Told my friends, I'm ok so far..

After the test I will go back to work..

It helps to be a bit buzy you know...

Well, I love you Babyluv...

So much..

Love,

Your mother 

Braveheart

Dear My Babyluv,

You must have seen me earlier right? 

I just died This afternoon Babyluv..

I went for the Down Syndrome Test. 

It's a specialized fetal test to check if you are ok Babyluv..

And we found out that you are swelling..

From your brain till your whole body..

The doctor said the cause is unknown, they want to do a test to find out if it's genetic.. 

I don't like that test because of the 2percent chances of miscarriage..

Even after the doctor told me that with your situation Babyluv, I'm likely to have a miscarriage in the few weeks..

Few weeks like this week or next..

Well - - -

As usual your mother has been a cry baby.. I thought of you Babyluv if your in pain or something.

The the fear of loosing you..

It was hard, your father was not with me..

I broke down again..

Quite badly..

And I'm sorry Babyluv..

I know I have to be brave..

I don't know what tomorrow brings, but I promise I will not give up..

I will not loose hope.

I have a brave heart. I will be a warrior for you Babyluv...

The Lord is with us and He will not leave us..

From now on. No tears..No Fears..

Only love love love...

I love you Babyluv..

And I'm not giving up this damned fight..

The doctors believe in Science, but ai believe in you Babyluv..

I believe in our Lord..

Pls don't give up my Babyluv...

We can do this..

Love you so much..

Your mother...

Babyluv pls don't so this

Babyluv..

Pls don't do this... 

12 weeks

We are at our 12th week today my Babyluv...❤️❤️❤️

Easter

Dear My Babyluv,

Today is Easter Sunday! 

The Lord is risen! 

Happy Easter Babyluv..

I love you..

Your father is very lonely today, he is alone on Easter. His first time..

At least I have you Babyluv..

I love you.

Love,

Your mother

Holy Week

Dear My Babyluv,

How is my baby today? You must have grown, have you? 

I miss you so much..

I can't wait to see you again in 2 weeks Babyluv..

May 4 is our next prenatal date, that too your father is back.. So we will be one complete family..

Today is Black Saturday and yesterday was Holy Friday..

It is a very impt time of the year Babyluv, because we commemorate the death and the sacrifices our Lord has done for us...

He was nailed on the cross, died to save us all from our sins.

That's how Jesus Christ love us Babyluv..

He was the one who gave you to me and your father.. You are God's gift to us..

Well, I would have really wanted to go to church but since your father is not here and because of my condition, I just stayed at home praying and thanking The Lord..

Tomorrow is even a greater day Babyluv..

For tomorrow, our Lord will rise from death and be with us again..

I can't wait to tell you more about our Lord when your out in the real world..

I love you Babyluv..

Love,

Your mother

Low Thyroid level

Dear My Babyluv,

How is my favorite person in the world?

That's you Babyluv..

I hope you are fine..

We are already at Week 10 Babyluv.. 

And taking it slowly and praying that end of the month will come safely...

Then our 1st trimester is done!!

I'm feeling so sad though..

Nurse Lorena called me today about the the blood tests they made last week..

I'm a blood type B+, and all tests went fine except that my Rubella has no immunity. Which means I could not have a chickenpox or measles for the 1st tri bec it's harmful for you Babyluv.. 

Next is I have below normal level of Thyroid.. This I don't know much, but they had me scheduled to see an endocrilogist or whatever, a specialist to check my Thyroid level.. 

I'm scared Babyluv..

I don't want anything to happen to you.. 

So I hope things will be ok.. 

Babyluv, you have to promise me that everything will be ok.. Ok!! 

Don't ever let go.. 

I love you so much..

Love, 

Your mother

Blood tests

Hello my Babyluv,

How are you my Babyluv? 

Hows your tiny feet and hands..

You must have the muscles now right to wiggle around? 

And I'm sure you're becoming a big baby now..

I miss ultrasounds Babyluv. 

I like it so I can see you...

Yesterday, I went to the clinic.

They took blood and urine tests..

Too much blood Babyluv..

But your mother isn't scared of needles (unlike your father) hehe..

So I was ok..

But I ask your Tito Robert to pick me up from the mall. This will calm your father and yes, he was happy..

I love you my Babyluv..

We will rock this journey..

I love you.

Love,

Your mother 

Siopao

Dear My Babyluv,

How are you today?

Me? We'll forget about my being over acting last night Babyluv. 

But yeah, your mother is really OA.

But I'm feeling a lot better today..

because I had Siopao..

And as always, never failed to amaze me..

I love you Babyluv..

Love,

Your mother

Sighhh

Dear My Babyluv,

Hows my sunshine? 

My star? 

The love of my life? 

My Babyluv?

Hope you're doing fine Babyluv..

I'm glad you liked the lychee..

I ate too much today..

Well, as for me.. I hate to tell you but I can't tell you any lies either ..

You will feel it anyway right Babyluv..

What I feel, you feel as well..

Anyway, I'm so sad , Your father told me that he has spoken to  the 3rd most important person in logistics in Nestle worldwide, and he may be requested to stay longer..

I felt so bad Babyluv..

I miss your father so much..

I feel its just you and me on this journey..

Crap!

I am being emotional am I? 

Must be the pregnancy hormone..

Ohhh Babyluv, I'm sorry I know we have to support your father. 

But sometimes when you miss the person, you just really don't understand things.

Well, just don't leave me ok Babyluv..

And I'm sure I'll be fine..

I love you Babyluv..

Love,

Yor mother 

Promoted

Dear My Babyluv, 

How are you today..

I've missed you...

Just to let you know that your mother got promoted, not big time, but good enough to add the thousand dirhams to your savings account Babyluv..

Yes, as early as now, you already owe my Personal Savings Account Babyluv...

I'm saving now for your future.. ❤️❤️

Because I love you so much...

Love,

Your mother 

I miss your father

Dear My Babyluv, 

I hold on to you for strength..

I miss your father si badly..

😢😢

I love you my Babyluv..

Love,

Your mother 

Tita Marj is pregnant too!!

Dear My Babyluv,

Isn't that a great news too!

Your tita Marj, the wife of your Tito Rommel is also pregnant..

Tito Rommel is my youngest brother and oh boy I couldn't be any happier..

You will have a cousin same your age Babyluv.. Yay!! 

Love,

Your mother

Daddy is off to Malaysia again

Dear My Babyluv,

I'm packing your father's stuff..

He is off to Malaysia again.. 

This time for a longer period of time. 

3 weeks.. 3 freaking weeks..

I know I know Babyluv..

I am as sad as you..

But remember what I told you? 

We have to support your father in every way.. And he is sent back to Malaysia because he is doing a great job..

So we should be proud of him!!

So for the next 3 weeks..

It's gonna be Babyluv-Mommy time again.. I love you Babyluv..

I love you so much..

Did you like the siopao earlier? 

Oh I love it sooo much..

I love you..

Love,

Your Mother

The cutest little feet and hands

Dear My Babyluv,

We went to the clinic today to check you growth, and Babyluv, I just saw your little hands and feet, and the thundering heart..

Oh Babyluv, you made me so happy..

I couldn't believe you have grown so fast..

The last time I saw you 2 weeks ago, you were just a little beanstalk..

Now you have grown and your moving hands and feet are just amazing..

Your father was with me, and initially he said he doesn't want to look at the ultrasound. Your father is scared Babyluv.. It must have been that moment when we didn't see you and he saw me crying too hard- that scared him.. Singe opted to just sit inside and wait..

But you are just so cute that the nurse, the doctor and me, forced him to see you.. And you Oh my, he was teary eyed and so happy to see you Babyluv..

You really don't know how happy you made us..

I love you Babyluv..

You enjoy in my tummy and together let's enjoy this journey ok..

I love you..

Love,

Your mother