My new "Fifty Shades of Gray"

Look what Joy, my colleague and friend, lent me...

What I have been pigging out lately

I'm so lucky to have a husband who cooks for me every single day and a brother who asists the husband. Yay!

What's my weight at 6?

Entering Week 6.

46 kilos.. 

💙💙💙

Oh boy, this is really it!!

My arms, legs and shoulders are so heavy today..

My boobs are swelling.. 

My body is paining.. 

Entering Week 6! 

This is really it! 

But I'm loving it..

Reactions.Reactions

After I got the confirmation call we called Dad immediately..

Me: Dad, you will have an Indian Apo soon.. I'm finally pregnant..

Dad: laughs out loud... Very good Very Good Very Good

Me: Ma, namabdus najud imong anak (Ma, ur daughter is finally pregnant) 

Mom: Who?

Me: Umm, me? U only have 2

Daughters so it should be me!!!

Mom: Laughs out loud..

Really really really, that's such a good news..

Me: Mom, I'm already 5 weeks pregnant

Russ mom: what, I can't hear you!

Me: ( ok) 

I am already pregnant mom !

Mom: ( no emotions at all) 

I know Pam

Me: How did you know.

Mom: because the. lord already told me last month..

Wow can you believe that..

We love our parents so much and I'm so sure we made them so happy today.. ❤️❤️❤️

My Ever First Love Letter

Dear My Babyluv, This is my first ever love letter to you. I love you so much.. from the day that I have prayed and longed for you, and I am extremely overjoyed that you are finally here, in my tummy. The wait has been years but sweet. You know Babyluv, your father is a sucker for stars and constellations. I learned the names and stories of the stars from him. When we were in Plantation Bay Cebu weeks back, I so longed for you. Its even in my Facebook status. I thought of you. Of Castor and Pollux. Castor and Pollux are twins Babyluv, and everytime I look in the night sky, I can always see them together, as in together. Of course It will be too much if I want you and your twin, right? (of course I want you both) But you alone is the best blessing I have. So right now, I'll always think of you as my Cappela, one of the brightest stars in the sky. God is good Babyluv, Ill tell you more about him. He was the one who blessed us with you. They said the coming 9 months will be tough. But I promise, I will do everything for you Babyluv. And you have to promise me, that you will hold on no matter what ok! We can do this and we will rock. I love you soooo much more than my heart is capable of. Love, Your Mother By the way, you father hates writing love letters but he loves you very very much. He touches you every night, and he is making sure Im eating the right food for you.. We love you so much..

We are soooooo Positive!!!

Received a call from Nurse Lorena confirming that we are positive. I am overjoyed beyond belief. Thank you Lord Thank you Lord for the miracle of life...

Depressed+Shocked+Happy+ Hopeful

So I flew back to Dubai leaving my husband in Cebu for a week. :-) We were very relaxed even with the very hectic-week we had there. So I thought that maybe, just maybe, I may have gotten pregnant so I tested. And its NEGATIVE!! I swear I have not felt so depressed my entire life that I have to Imessage Russ and got him worried. Who wouldnt? *sigh sigh Then the following week, its business as usual. Most from the office thought i have lost solid weight. Concerned, I have vowed to eat a lot. (I look like a giraffe when Im so thin). But, but Ive noticed THAT Ive been eating extra TOO MUCH. Im surprised by myself, how I can finish 3-4 plates on buffet. I know Im a pig at times but its just too much. But OK, it must be the "have to gain weight" notion, so Im good. Russ came back after a week, and Im starting to get pain in my right boob and stomach. It must have been the RFD expected on 16th of every month. Cool, all I need is just a Coke to begin this Red Flag Day. Day 1 and Day 2 - I must have finished too much Coke, RFD hasnt started yet. Feb 17th and 18th - frequent trips to the ladies room. Vomitted 3 times. Must be because Im hungry. Cool. Gas. Excessive Gas. I fart like people need it to breathe hahaha Seriously, somethings just not going right. I dont know how or why, but I wanted to test again. Feb 18th - doing my nightly-hourly mantra in the bathroom, I laid the HCG PT. I saw the heartbreaking single line, a negative. Cool.What's new. Then when I was about to throw the kit, I saw the 2nd line. My heart literally stopped. I dont know what to feel or think or I dont know. I called Russ, who's to my surprise, clueless about home PTs. It must have been his first time to see this. haha Russ: Annoyed, "WHAT?" Me: See? Russ: What's That? Me: I think Im pregnant! Russ: Why, bec the line is pink? (SERIOUSLY??? *sigh) Me: 2 lines. There are 2 lines which mean I may be pregnant.. I could see all emotions in my husband's face. Shocked, Scared, Happy, Stoned, Doubt, - That must have how I looked when Ive seen the 2 lines. So we decided to see an OB on a Friday, but then we couldnt get an appointment. GEEZ I didnt know OBs are so in demand. *tsk. Lucky to get a Thursday 330 appointment in Mediclinic Dubai Mall. They did the test and.. Results will be out tomorrow, Saturday. There has been too much agony already waiting for the good news. But I remain hopeful, and I know in my heart our brightest start is already here. in my tummy.. So bloggy, because I have disowned you, you are the 2nd person to know my story (1st is Meggy). Cant wait for tomorrow, so Im gonna have a beauty sleep now while I wait for tomorrow's result.

Review Rewind

2014 has been sweet. We flew to Cebu last Jan end to attend Rommel's wedding. Heard it right bloggy, Rommel, our dunsgoy, miming, meow, our very loved youngest brother. He and Marj finally tied the knot after 7 years..Wow! That is such a good and sweet news, isnt it? (I told you bloggy) The sad news is I get to spend only a week in Cebu *cry cry* Because I just came from an 18-day Euro trip (I KNOW THIS DESERVES A PAGE), I cant stay longer. Worse, Russ gets to spend 2 weeks.. IMAGINE *grrrr Worst, My sister Lany and family were not there to celebrate with this. They have migrated in the US and couldnt come home.. *cry cry Anyway, I get to spend it beautifully with family though so Im happy. Im contented to have Hugged my boys and my parents even for a short period of time, Honeymooning in Plantation and Family loving in Coco Palms. Life is indeed a beach..

The Prodigal Daughter

Hey bloggy, this is Pam..

You must have forgotten me!

But whether you like it or not..

I'm sooo back.. 

Next post is A Bomb.. I promise..

My peace offering to you bloggy..