You're in my Heart

Dear My Simeone, 

Yes you have a name my Babyluv.

We never knew if you're a footballer or a princess.. 

But it doesn't matter because we love you whichever gender you are, if you're normal or special, or for whatever you are.. 

We love you more than our hearts are capable of loving..

You were finally out yesterday at 3:55 am.

Simeone, you are one naughty kid..

But I loved it.. You would always remind me of your father..

It took me 4 days to try to get you out..

The induction (4 meds in my inside), about 10 IEs, about 2 liters of drips, a Foley catheter and a D & C surgery.

Not to mention the 10 vial of blood, 4 injections and 10 pinches - it's not a joke but entertaining to see your father scared to death.. ( our secret, he is scared of needles)

The first 3 days, I was relaxed, worried because you're not going out.. 

But the 4th day, at around 12:05 am, I writhe in pain.. Literally. The contractions are getting me crazy.. Unbearable pain Babyluv.. I think I broke your father's fingers gripping on him every 30'seconds..

Then I felt a pop and you slid Babyluv.

Right in to my hospital bed, with a pool of blood.. I saw you inside the tray.  Only on side view though. I wanted to see you but I was so weak and the contractions are hitting me again..

You look brown and slimy..

On the same night, I asked the staff nurse how you looked.. 

She said you are like a jelly.. You don't have a face yet, can not determine the gender, but you already have arms, legs and surprisingly your nails are visible.. 

And you know your father is so proud you got his nails.. (Your father has dinasaur nails that we assume if its visible at this stage, then for sure you got it from  him.) 

And he is showing off his nails every 5 mins.. He is so irritating yet cute Babyluv.

He is just so proud of you..

Well, we are going home today with hearts full of you. You will always always always be in our hearts My Babyluv..

You are our eldest child..

Sorry if we can not take you home or give you a decent burial, the process here apparently sucks. But we pray for you everyday our Angel.. 

We love you so much..

Kisses from Mommy..

By the way,  I'm still waiting for that dream ok.. 

I love you.

Sleep tight my love,

Love, 

Your mother